Dollface Creator Jordan Weiss: 'I'm More Worried About Finding a Maid-of-Honor Than a Husband'

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It’s not that I wasn’t happy for her, but as their relationship progressed, I started to feel parts of my friend’s personality disappear. She was beginning to talk like him, act like him, party like him, and I was worried about her. When we spoke, I sounded less like a best friend and more like a nagging mother. By the end of our sophomore year our friendship had become strained and distant, and then I found out she was transferring—moving back across the country to be closer to home. We’d been growing apart for a while, but now I was officially alone.

I knew it was time to start putting myself out there with girlfriends again.

Then it was my turn. After my friend left, I became withdrawn from the other women I knew in class. I resented our sorority and started feeling like the whole concept of sisterhood was tinged with insincerity. After the worst heartbreak of my life, I wasn’t ready to put myself out there. Instead, I decided I would find a boyfriend. I retreated into a romantic relationship and lost myself. My confidence was at an all-time low, and becoming an ancillary character in a man’s life felt easier than trying to star in my own for a while. I’m a person who doesn’t really like sports, but my ex was a fanatic. To give you an idea of how bad it got, by the end of this relationship, I had my own fantasy football team. Yeah…I know.

By graduation that relationship was over. I was 22, I had a good job, an apartment in L.A., and I was dating someone new, but something in my life still felt missing. The summer after college my new boyfriend brought me with him to his buddy’s wedding. As I sat in the ceremony, everyone around me watching the bride and groom, there was one person I couldn’t take my eyes off. When the bride reached the altar, she turned to her maid-of-honor to hand off the bouquet, and I saw the girls exchange a quick hand squeeze. I recognized it instantly—the way one small movement in the language of best friends was a whole conversation.

When we got home from the wedding, I knew it was time to start putting myself out there with girlfriends again. At first it felt like I’d been out of the game so long I forgot what I was doing. I was like your divorced aunt trying to reenter the dating world and asking for your help to make a Bumble. The rituals of girls’ nights out and Sunday brunch I remembered from early college felt foreign and daunting, but I forced myself to make plans. I introduced myself to girls at work and at parties. I went on group hikes, and joined a Bachelor watch party. I even went to a women’s networking event where everyone potted their own mini succulent and pretended I didn’t think it was stupid the entire time.

It didn’t always come naturally, but I was showing up and making the effort. And during this time, I was writing, and looking to my own life for inspiration. I had a weird idea one day while picturing myself on this search for female friendship, involving a bus driven by a wise old woman with a cat head. Four years ago almost to the day, the beginnings of what would become Dollface started to form.

Kat Dennings and Esther Povitsky in a scene from Hulu’s Dollface

Ali Goldstein/Hulu

Today I’m 26, and I still don’t know who my maid-of-honor is going to be. Let’s be honest, I don’t know if I’m ever getting married. But I do know this—because I made the effort, I’ve never had better girlfriends than I do now, and my life has never been as happy and hectic and fulfilled as it is because of them.

And as far my involvement with Dollface, writing a show about a girl reconnecting with her friends has had real-life benefits. Even though we don’t get to see each other as much as we’d like, and I don’t know what role we’ll play in each other’s future weddings, the day I found out Dollface was green-lighted as a series at Hulu, it was the perfect excuse to pick up the phone and give my best friend from college a call.

Jordan Weiss is the creator and executive producer of Dollface. The series premieres on Hulu on November 15.

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